So what was it that I spoke about to get this reaction you ask? Some children would ask me how I knew things and I of course I answered "The tree, by the corner there, told me." Normal to me as I thought the many plants spoke to them as well..... well you can imagine my horror.
He also has his own path of learning, totally separate from me. I notice that he too has a hard time with communicating and to get his point across he is too direct & oversteps boundaries, hurting people in the process. He mistakes assertiveness with aggressiveness and has no patience to let others speak if they have a different opinion. With him there is no grey, it is black and white. He just knows things. But I believe he is an Indigo child, which have these strong personalities, to clear old nonsense out of the way for future persons.
My point is, that we all try to survive in our own ways with the resources we know about at different times. We are all here for our own purpose and lessons, big or small. My son and I both have had weird abilities, sadly by the time I was preteen, I had shut mine down, and spent half my life trying to fit in.
You can see this in famous people too. People like to put you on a pedestal then take all they can from you then when you need a break or drained your cup, they not only leave you in the dust, but they kick you in the gut for good measure, but don't forget the added sugarcoated spoonfuls of perceived justifications for these actions. They simply can't just leave quietly, no, their ego "needs" to let everyone else know so they will stay away because 'heavens forbid' if the others might hear your side of the story -- it just might conflict with theirs. But After all that has happened to me, I still have compassion.
Now I am very proud of who I am and have embraced both the dark and the light of me. I think I scare some lesser developed or insecure people with my strength, but I don't mean to, and as we all know, they attempt to knock you down to their level to feel comfortable. If you don't back down they run.
My major interests are my ancestors, and a strong interest in the mythology of Arthur, who became, in later tales King Arthur. On top of this, I've always where sayings or beliefs come from and absolutely love studying this. I am attracted to old castles and want to live in one, even if i have to make my own. My favorite colour is Electric blue. I seem to get along with animals and nature rather than people. In fact, one of my faults is that it saddens me because I've always wanted a close friend or even a friend to do things with. I am happy though that I did find that and didn't know it, with a girlfriend in Saskatoon. I met her again after 20 yrs and I still felt like we just left off. Love you Meg. XOX.
Oddly as an adult, Children I now get along with. Children love me because I connect with their inner play and have a highly developed imagination and creative mind. Adults, as a child and Spiritual Elders I've always been fascinated by. In fact I've had many odd encounters with them. Each saying I would be destined for something great and this use to bother me. I wanted to know what it was. To be honest i still don't know so I quit worrying and just keep going. This time openly.
I found it odd, coming to Calgary, and the 'witches' or pagan persons here were afraid to "speak the w word", to use a phrase from the wife of a couple, I first met in 1997, who were the meet and greet for me. I already knew that you teach people how to treat you and by acting like you are ashamed of something you invite persons to shame you. I didn't want any part of that. I've never had any problem, with anyone I've met, including bosses, for my days off or my beliefs. When I first started, and being shy and always trying to fit in didn't help, I acted like everyone else, being angry and feeling persecuted. This only attracted the same.
There is something else about me that is or is not weird, but I am attracted to wanting to live in the country surrounded in ancient looking furs and natural furniture around me so I can curl up in them. Instead I buy, what I call, fluffies, or fuzzies. You know those furry blankets. I feel comfortable in teepees, or huts, or old cabins.
I am my best when I feel that someone has my back, when someone want to pitch in, when I feel I am not alone. Unfortunately, 90% of the time, I am alone. I was also a single parent and was not there enough for my son. Society is set up for this abuse of children because of the money game.
I don't know but I am sure my son felt very alone in the school systems as well, as he would be extremely bored, and know more than the teacher. I know I had an incident when I was young and the teacher was giving the class shit because they were not listening and got low marks on the metric system test, but he bragged about that he knows he taught it well because I was quiet and got a 100%. The one odd time, where I overcame my shyness and told him I did not learn it from his teachings (which was a week long), I learned it in 5 minutes from my brother. He mocked me and told me If I though I was so great, to come up to the board and show the rest of the students, my 5 minute lesson. I did and they all got 100% in the test right after.
This works with people too. The last round of students did that for me. I want to know everything about them before they join my tribe. If you don't have your financial affairs in order, your balance in play and work, your balance of negative and positive or your lacking basic needs, and you don't want to listen and follow out the new way, seize opportunity to get ahead....then piss off, I have no time or the energy for you; Those who choose to repeat behaviour that didn't change anything in the first place, or people who choose to look for the bad in people to replace looking at themselves.
For my tribe, started in 2002, since 2009, after a grueling time with dishonourable students, I now go after those who are who are happy with themselves and arent looking for a quick fix or titles. I found them in persons who are skilled in Drawing, Painting, Decorating, Photography and other skills that show they see the world 'differently' then others. They are fantastic at inventing new games of social interaction and creating new more efficient ways of doing things. I find it is those who are not interested in competitive sports but instead personal achievement and their own discipline in martial arts or other interests that are more enlightened and make better tribal members. They are better listeners and have the courtesy to stop and listen to someone when they play them a song on the guitar at a party, or sing for them, instead of gabbing with their friends. They are drawn to theatre, comedy and ritual where they can act as a character and express a view or create a mood. I look also for persons who've gone through major grief or trauma, have been emotionally or physically abused, abandoned, or may have turned to drugs or alcohol as a child, teenager or young adult but have awakened and pulled through in strength. I feel we were put there in these families or situations so that we would be subjected to very painful and life shattering experiences so that we could figure out how to balance. Without knowing the extreme harshness of winter, one never truly knows the warm loving arms of summer. Some never learn that spring will always come and they get stuck buried in the snow.
If any of this sounds like you, and you've been looking for a way to contribute to the new world and bring it back into balance, your tribal family is looking for you. We know the world is not going to work with the money system of today and we need to wake up and bring back sharing and not wasting resources.